Once, I used to be a guy that wore the brightest rose coloured glasses 24/7. Nothing could sway how inspired I was about the future and no matter what was going on everything would end up fine. Every challenge was brushed off with an air of self-arrogance because nothing could touch me. How times have changed.
With age and life experience comes wisdom. Instead of wearing those bright rose coloured glasses, I look at the world for what it really is. A challenging landscape of various difficulties that require constant up-skills of focus, decision and action. To remain constant in an ever changing world is to lie down and let life roll straight over you.
An email has been sent to our CEO from a brother-from-another-mother at work drawing a line in the sand. This is now a call to arms. We cannot continue moving in the direction we are for we will not survive as a company. He has called the CEO out. It’s time to put up or shut up shop.
I’ve struggled with this in the past eighteen hours since reading it. I don’t want to fold as I’ve given too much of myself to the role and to the company. Yet folding could be the truth and finality of it all. It’s an unknown and that is what creates the greatest sense of unease. Of tension.
The thoughts put down on this blog, as I’ve said before, are usually for me to gain a greater understanding of what’s going on than for those of you (who I thank gratefully) who read these words. Words that sit in a thought are almost like the unseen wind. Yet when they come to life on a blog or in a journal, then there is a deeper attachment to them. When visualised, a three dimensional landscape is drawn to give greater clarity and scope to see beyond what were just thoughts to begin with.
No matter the reality of the outcome in the next couple of weeks, I will wake every morning and breathe. As long as I can do that much, then I am already off to a good start.